Thursday, July 21
a picture paints a thousand words.it was crazily cold in hwachong.. and then crazily hot in st. marg's. i think i'll fall sick from all the extreme weather changes.
my sister ate all my biscuits. which is good. i'd have gobbled them up otherwise. i'm pretty happy with myself today. did not overeat, which makes up for yesterday. =D all i've eaten so far: two slices of bread, a sausage, a few fries, two packets of jacobs biscuits, a bit of liz's cookie, two chicken wings and some veg. oh no it does sound like a lot when put into words. but at least i avoided fat-packed canteen food! woohoo! =D huiying and i plan to bring low-cal soup powder to school and make soup to drink instead of enduring high-carb canteen food.
lots of random thoughts running through my head.
van, good luck for tomorrow. i'll be praying for you. i hope you get your heart's desire, whatever that may be. remember that you'll always be my star.
i'm trying to remember that surge of adrenaline, and my heart pounding wildly in my throat, every nerve strained.. i'm trying to remember how hard it was to open my eyes, because everything thought i ever had would come flooding out through the windows to my soul. i'm trying to remember what it was like to run sobbing into your arms.. once upon a long time ago.
sentimental crap! why is it easier to write what i feel than to say it out loud? easy to blame it on someone else, something else. i don't want to accept responsibility for my thoughts and actions. it's easy to claim someone's practicing deconstructionism.
shit! i lost that little scrap of yellow paper with everyone's names and colours.. shit shit shit. *stomps around* hope i can remember everything correctly..
what am i to you - little, much or nothing?
it must've been love.
8:46 pm
xoxo
